Sum up 2011

Upon reading my SUM UP 2011, Im super demoralized to write the Sum up of 2011.

2010 had been fun.
2011 is just so different.

How should I begin? 2011 is one of the worst year I've been, I think. There were so many losses. My greatest lost? My weight! I dropped 7-8kg this year. It was mainly due to my health problem anyway. 2011 is also the year, i made countless trips to hospitals. It is also the year i had the thing i wanted most all these time and lost it. And probably never had it again. It's the year I had more medicines than meals. Means spending a large amount of money just on hospital bills.

2011, I had quite an amount of twenty first birthday. First up was Minyi's. Then Aishu's and Pauline's. They are still awesome work mates! Then recently I went to Darren's. This year's birthday was simple, but sweet to me. Very different from 2010, I havent been out of Singapore a single day this year. Not even to Malaysia.

When you focus on what you've lost, you'll lose more.

I totally get this saying. I've let myself miserable for too long. I'm always finding faults and cannot move on. I can't say I am completely happy now. But at least I have not let myself stay in sadness anymore. I don't pray for happiness every single day. I just wish not to be sad.

Losing one thing and make every beautiful things being lost as well. Because I focused too much on the things that are lost. I have no time for lovely and much little things beside me. When I finally wake up and realise, I am praying it's not too late.

This year, I have made the decision that changed my life. It might as well be the best decision I have made. When they say they saw the rainbow. I felt the rainbow. It's the indescribably feeling inside out. Like you shine just when you don't realise. Some things are just meant to be. And often it's those you think you'll never believe or be.

I hope that everyone have a blessed Christmas holiday!
I know my three Christmas parties are gonna rock!
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