unwell or just really annoyed by them?

i thought i would be feeling better today.

then after i had my super little dinner, i threw up, again.

i don't know why i would puke.

and now that i am feeling unwell, i cannot do anything.

i cannot think of stuffs i am suppose to think and settle.

and i forget to contact claudia, which in this case i am totally asshole.

i get offended by some random sms.

i don't get why some people can reply me yet not replying to related stuffs i text in the first place.

i am annoyed by unsensitive msn chats.

i really don't feel like talking to you all anymore.

i wish i was feeling better so i can work on the things i need to do.

to everyone it's just another birthday, but to me, it's not.

i really want to make it special for my brother.

and i don't even want to take joke about it.

i've always choose Psi over Msi for these years.

but i think i should care about Msi more.

i really enjoyed every single time i spend with Msi.

however, it's quite often that Psi quarrels.

which makes me very irritated.

i mean, i feel that when i'm around Msi, people treat me like i'm suppose to be treated.

i love being with Msi.

i feel like home.

this is what i feel in the past with Psi.

but i no longer feel that.

i feel like a stranger inside.

no more home feeling with Psi.

i don't like to be question about other's whereabout.

i don't like to be asked to serve others.

i don't get all the things being done these days.

it felt like there's an intruder.

and it no longer feels like home.