time flies.
you can most measure it when you see little children growing.
how they were so little and now speaking to you like they are you best friends.
Natalie is now seven years old.
She's that "perfect present" for us these years.
I hope she knows that.
On birthday of this little girl, i wish to give thanks for Mummychew and Papachew.
And tell them ,"Your little girl is amazing."
This is a phrase i read a month ago from tumblr.
"You know what I think we are most afraid of? Not knowing. Not knowing whether it’s all really worth it. Not knowing if you should give up or keep fighting. Not knowing why you do the things you do; not knowing the purpose. It’s like when you’re little and you touch the stove and get burned because you didn’t know that it was hot. Not knowing has always hurt us, from the every beginning."
Today was horrible.
I showered 4 times so i can cry alone in my bathroom.
The scariest part is i don't know what i'm crying for.
I'm just so lost and scare.
I remembered that phrase ever since i read it.
I don't know what i want. I have no big dreams and plans.
But everyone should have dreams and plans.
I did had. But they no longer valid.
Actually, I don't believe in plans and dreams anymore.
Things change everyday and we can't prevent it.
Plans are meant to be disturbed. Dreams will never be as planned.
I don't dare to set targets. I'll never meet them.
Don't know how and when i've become this way i felt comfortable in it.
I've let it defeated me.
When I don't aim or expect anything, then i'll stop being disappointed in myself when things aint doing according to plans.
I'm praying to come out of that shell.
I want to know what I really want again.
I maybe be slow but i have faith that one day, when i overcome all these, I'll be ten times stronger than what I am now.
you can most measure it when you see little children growing.
how they were so little and now speaking to you like they are you best friends.
Natalie is now seven years old.
She's that "perfect present" for us these years.
I hope she knows that.
On birthday of this little girl, i wish to give thanks for Mummychew and Papachew.
And tell them ,"Your little girl is amazing."
This is a phrase i read a month ago from tumblr.
"You know what I think we are most afraid of? Not knowing. Not knowing whether it’s all really worth it. Not knowing if you should give up or keep fighting. Not knowing why you do the things you do; not knowing the purpose. It’s like when you’re little and you touch the stove and get burned because you didn’t know that it was hot. Not knowing has always hurt us, from the every beginning."
Today was horrible.
I showered 4 times so i can cry alone in my bathroom.
The scariest part is i don't know what i'm crying for.
I'm just so lost and scare.
I remembered that phrase ever since i read it.
I don't know what i want. I have no big dreams and plans.
But everyone should have dreams and plans.
I did had. But they no longer valid.
Actually, I don't believe in plans and dreams anymore.
Things change everyday and we can't prevent it.
Plans are meant to be disturbed. Dreams will never be as planned.
I don't dare to set targets. I'll never meet them.
Don't know how and when i've become this way i felt comfortable in it.
I've let it defeated me.
When I don't aim or expect anything, then i'll stop being disappointed in myself when things aint doing according to plans.
I'm praying to come out of that shell.
I want to know what I really want again.
I maybe be slow but i have faith that one day, when i overcome all these, I'll be ten times stronger than what I am now.
Please be with me always.
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