Love is blind

They say love is blind.
It's utterly blind.
I know that no third party should comment on a relationship than the two person involved.
But. You made me sick. You made me uncomfortable.
You upset my life, my thinking and my feelings.
I can't understand why.
I can't accept it.
And I don't like it at all.
I HATE IT.
I feel totally miserable with all these things going on.
Go away. Go far away from us.
God. I'm asking strength and courage from you to let me change this.
For the benefit of everyone i love around me.
I am not the only one who is uncomfortable and upset.
I don't want them all to go through this.
So God, I beg for no wisdom to accept this.
God, I prayed for this to end.
And I can't wait for this to be over.
Because every single time I think of it, my heart sank.
My heart hurts.
It's killing me.
It's even more bitter than the time I lost J.
It's even worst than seeing my mom going berserk.
It's worst than those late night I thought of littlebud.
Because when all these happen, I know it'll somehow gets better.
But this time, I can't figure it out.
And I'm too coward to stand forward.
It's just so horrible.
I just feel so much pain.
You're a Satan in our life.
I won't let you win.
I won't give in to this dumb shit.
And I am going to make you leave.
This isn't suppose to happen.
This is not right.
This is wrong.
It's a big mistake.
I am not here to judge.
I am here to protect who i love.